When Life Brings Bad News

For the past year or so my Aunt, who is 65 years old, has had some ongoing health problems. Around the age of 62 she battled and won the battle of breast cancer. Within the last year, she has gone to several specialists because she was having a hard time breathing. The doctors diagnosed her with Tacky Brady syndrome and a pace maker was put into her. Well, once diagnosed her health continued to go downhill. Several times I would travel to Lincoln Nebraska (an hour from where I live) to visit her. In May she was submitted to a care center because her breathing now needed oxygen and she was no longer able to walk and was put in a wheel chair. Two weeks ago she was submitted to the ICU, her body was only producing 20% oxygen. This week, she continued to get worse. It is has been a long week. Due to the fact that I was finishing school up with the kids, I was not able to be at the hospital as much as I would have liked to have been. I made it up there Saturday Morning and continued to stay with my family until this afternoon, she had passed away at 12:50pm. It was a sad day, but her death was expected and we are glad that her suffering has ended.
As I look back on the past few days, I can't really explain how I feel. It has all been such a whirlwind, in and out of the hospital, visiting funeral homes, talking with pastors, crying with family and saying our good-byes. After being in the hospital all weekend, I said my good-nights to my parents and headed home. Sometimes I feel as if death can just be to overwhelming and I needed a break, a time to just think about the past events and be myself. I guess that is how I mourn, by myself.
I hate to make such a sad post, but death is all a part of life. The blessing is that she is a Christan has gone to a better place and will be loved and missed by so many.