Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Life Anxiety

This weekend I cam across some Pasta Slim, aka as tofu noodles with spinach. I have been devouring these making yummy pasta sides with tomato sauce and turkey meatballs.
Alongside my famous pita bread, jelly and string cheese!
Of course, more fall foods...egg whites an pumpkin with sugar free maple syrup and pumpkin topped on top of oat bran with protein powder and Cinnamon.
My anxiety has been running on high this week and it is only Tuesday! First of all, I have a jam packed week. Tomorrow I have to leave my house by 6 am to travel an hour and a half away to do some standard writing for school assessments. Thursday I took a personal day to get our engagement photos done, exciting yes...but I had to take two days off in a row which means twice the work when I return on Friday. When I used to live five minutes away from my school, it was easier to pop in and out and catch up on things...now that I live forty minutes away, it is much harder and I have to get to work earlier and stay much later. On top of this I have so many little things that I need to do in the meantime and I am finding it impossible to get them in...like get my loan added to my car title (but the darn place closes at 4 and I don't get off work until 4) !
With my regular day to day crazy schedule anxiety comes my workout anxiety. My Achilles tendon is really starting to act up again. My last run was last Thursday, 3.5 miles. Friday I did the elliptical/cycle for an hour which the same followed on Saturday. I noticed it was a little stiff both days, but by Sunday (no activity at all on Sunday) it was even more stiff and a little sore. Monday I woke up and it felt decent, did my 40 min elliptical and 10 min cycle, and man did it stiffen up immediately. I even started to notice pain in my calf!! So....it is back to the pool and off my feet with lots of icing. But....Murphey's Law, of all times my local pool is closed for major repairs! I am one determined girl, so today I moved my workouts until the afternoon and traveled to another local YMCA by my work to swim/lift. Now having to do this is going to be a pain in the arse if you know what I mean, and extra 20 minutes out of my way. Our pool is supposed to be fixed any day now, so I am crossing my fingers. Yes, I could just not work out at all...but I would rather drive the extra 20 minutes just to get in my endorphin high.
I was surprised how much anxiety changing my routine caused, actually a little pathetic. The entire day I was worried about becoming too tired to get a good workout in, not making it home until after 7, etc. This is something I really, and I mean really need to work on...breaking my routine is not the end of the world, life goes on and things can be done in different ways.
What is something you need to work on about yourself?

8 comments:

  1. Ohmygosh. I just wrote you a small novel, and when I clicked 'post comment' my computer deleted my entire entry. Grr. I'll try and rephrase..

    I'm sorry that you're feeling anxious about your new schedule. Any transition is tough, but hopefully yours will smooth out soon. New schedules, work, workout times, make for a tough adjustment, but you're strong and you'll be back to your old self in no time!

    Personally, I need to work on accepting myself on days when I feel mediocre. A B+ on a test isn't failure. Walking during a run isn't failure. Not enough sleep or too much froyo isn't failure. It's not about having perfect days, but rather striving to make the best of every situation and enjoying the journey. Sounds cheesy, but it's so true.

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  2. I'm the same way. not that changing my route gives my anxiety but highly anxious. It's apparently genetic. My dad's WHOLE family has anxiety issues and my father unfortunately ended his life b/c of them (not to scared you) so I run to avoid thinking. I think yoga and other practices that pull you back into your body are very helpful. I don't know if your new schedule will allow it but even meditation is very good for people like us :)

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  3. I need to work on letting my imperfections slide- both in terms of character traits and things i do. no one's perfect! i tend to hate on myself for that though, and engage in excessive amounts of negative self-talk, which i totally need to stop even letting myself think.

    anxiety is definitely something else i need to work on coping with better, but i know it's possible to do! hopefully you find something soon that helps relieve some of it... if nothing else, remember that we ALL are in constant need of improvement, but we're also great the way we are. a little bit of both :)

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  4. I used to struggle really badly with anxiety - I had to see a counselor for a year because it was so bad! I'm really happy that I'm mostly anxiety free now (at least the bad anxiety) but when I'm injured and can't run or I don't get in my workout, I get really anxious. I need to accept that I can take a chill pill every now and then, even if it's unplanned! Your achilles seems to be giving you so much trouble and I really feel for ya. My shins and knees have been flaring up and it's no fun!

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  5. Running is the best tool I know of to deal with anxiety! But on days when 'life gets in the way' of working out or running, I try to tell myself that rest days are just as important (if not more important) than training days and I just chalk that off day up to a rest day and get on with it. Its hard but that's a tool that's worked for me!

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  6. I get anxiety when my schedule is altered also! Running is a great stress reliever. I'm feeling extra stressed right now, being sick and unable to run...I hope you are feeling better!!!

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  7. I hear you on the anxiety! I've developed major anxiety over the last few years. I have to constantly remind myself that nothing is the end of the world. I used to be so carefree.....now I'm just a bundle of nerves....haha.

    xo
    Sarah
    Get Up & Go

    PS - The pasta slim is new to me. I'm going to give it a try.....thanks for sharing.

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